ain't no sunshine

(remember this?)

this may be my fault. i might have jinxed it.

i put my air conditioners in a couple weeks ago...and it's been raining and grey ever since. and ever since i put my shade up in my kitchen window the sun has refused to shine. i have yet to actually USE this shade. it has not moved. there has yet to be any sunshine in my eyes.

AND I AM ABOUT TO FREAK OUT.

it's JUNE.
almost JULY.

no sun presents a few problems. not including the fact that i am getting a little crazier every day.

1. there are about a thousand mushrooms growing in my new patch of sod. awesome.
2. miss piper is too big for all her warm clothes, so she's an a two or three outfit rotation, while all her pretty summer clothes hang in her closet. yuck.
3. and elias, is DYING to go swimming/go outside/do anything that is not inside, and it's been so wet and rainy, i haven't been able to exercise him like he needs (does that make him sound like my pet, or something? ah well. it's true).

our garden, on the other hand, will probably be a jungle by the time we get back from vacation. look at the bright side, right?! wait a minute...what does bright look like?

i need to be get a move on with packing and gearing up for vacation. and i swear i need vitamin D to be productive and get excited.
is anyone else like that?

for now, i am just waiting for the sun to come out. like annie or something. since pastor's wives don't have any more pull with God when it comes to weather, i guess i'll just have to be patient ;)
*sigh*

fickle fickle

yesterday: it was 65 degrees outside.
i mean, i wore a sundress...flip flops! and walked with elias down to one of our lunch spots, gilly's pub, after church.

it was warm. sunny. breezy.

what a difference a day made.

24 little hours.
and today: it is torrentially...snowing? weird. but so classic here in new england, isn't it?

it's hard for a gal like me not to get all excited when it's warm like it was yesterday. i'm immediately like, 'yay! spring is here! pack up the sweaters! hooray!'

truth is, if there wasn't still snow on the ground yesterday, i might have made a break for the beach. in march. mmm. a little crazy. but the sunshine makes me that way. all giddy and happy and silly and excited.

and today, i'm in my pajamas still. i took a two hour nap this morning (thank you Jesus dave is home on mondays). i haven't accomplished one single thing besides feeding myself and my children. and i'm totally fine with it. it's gross out. and it's wet and cold and snowy and windy and rotten. and i feel a little similar.

in light of this roller coaster of emotions, i've deduced that i am simply solar-powered. if there is sun, i am happy despite all circumstances. and if there is not...well, i can go either way.

it's a bit psycho, i think...
...and you know what? it made me think of how we love God. when we feel close to him- warm sun on our faces- we're invincible, positive, ready, willing, capable, adoring. but when the clouds get in our way, and we can't feel that warmth, we get all distant and cold and figure we'll just wait for the next sunny day.

it's so easy to forget, mostly because we are fickle like the weather (ahem, michelle), God is not fickle in the least. he never goes anywhere, even if we feel like he might have moved.

when you're omnipresent, getting away is probably pretty tricky.

so i'm working on keeping my sunshine going in the snow and rain and clouds and blah. because he's there. even when we like to pretend he's not.

anyone else out there fickle like new england weather?

"Am I only a God nearby," declares the LORD, "and not a God far away?" Jeremiah 23:22-24